So...summer is officially here. Now summer always brings with it a whole mix of emotions. On one hand you get to be lazy and sleep in; spend you days at the pool, watching TV or playing video games. Summer also brings pressure. You don't want to waste your summer, have school come around and realize you've done nothing. There's also the pressure to find a summer job. But this year summer means a whole batch of new emotions because this will be the first summer in 6 years that I won't spend with my Oregon friends. No sleepovers on trampolines, floating down the river, throwing Frisbee at the park, going to the movies, or walking down to Dari Mart to get a Jones Soda. No more horror film spoofs, murder mystery parties, or Guitar Hero jam sessions. At least not with these friends. And yes, I have all these great memories to look back on, but that doesn't make it hurt any less.
I think the hardest part of this whole thing is knowing that their worlds keep spinning while mine feels like it's stopped. They still have each other and I feel alone. Ok, I may be sounding a little melodramatic...but it's almost 2am and I can't sleep because this is on my mind. (I deal with my emotions by writing about them.)
Don't get me wrong, God has provided me with some amazing Christian friends here. In Oregon one of my biggest desires was to have a college group where I could fellowship with other believers, grow in my faith, and just...belong. A group of friends I could hang out with. I was sure the only way to get this was at a Christian university, but when I was unable to attend one God provided me with numerous groups that matched exactly what I had been praying for. Now I'm overwhelmed with all these different, wonderful college groups.
I've met some great friends in these groups...but it will be a while before we're playing Risk and watching Foyle's War at all hours of the night.
Until then "there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother" Proverbs 18:24b
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